Anyone who knows me, whether it’s personally or in the author world, knows my dream is writing. Whether I make $10 or $1000 doesn’t matter. I need to write. It’s part of me. Luckily, I’m blessed with a publisher who is willing to deal with me, flaws and all. When I write, they pub it. I’m also blessed to have readers who want to hear from me. To be honest with you, that part still blows my mind. I never imagined someone else out there would want to read what I wrote. Now, I actually have people who ask what’s coming next. It’s amazing. It’s mind blowing. The only downside? The real world. Yes, the day job. That gets in the way lol. I couldn’t tell you how many times I have wanted to hang up the 9 to 5 (way more hours than that considering what I do) but I can’t do that. Nope. Bills. Bills. Bills. Bills. You guys get it, I know, but still, it’s a hiccup in the goal department. If work wasn’t a thing, I don’t know if I’d ever stop writing. Well, I’m sure I would. The kiddo needs me, the hubby demands to be fed, and well, I have to play with the furbabies, but you get what I mean. The notebooks of ideas wouldn’t be laying here, waiting for me. I wouldn’t be scheduling my writing around work and earning a living. It would be heaven for a book worm like me. The thing is though, I know I need to have a life outside of my passion for writing. It’s how inspiration comes. You’ve heard people talk about wanting to write people they meet throughout their day into their books. I get to do that. Sure, if I was at home more, I may be farther in along with the goals I’ve set for myself, but I think I’d lose part of me. Maybe, one day, I’ll at least get to slow down. For now, I’m doing all I can for the family while I’m able. My morning routine of grabbing a few thousand words before the house wakes up is working. Sure, I need to be up at the butt crack of dawn, but hey, schedules must be kept. My publisher, co-writer, and friend Erin Lee is always telling me there’s a difference between writing as a hobby and writing with a goal in mind. Yes, I have a goal. Will I reach it? You betcha! Will it be soon? Maybe not, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to give up. No, all it means is I’m going to keep pushing, just like I did today. I woke up, grabbed the coffee, started writing, and sure enough I was lost. I was lost in a world of my own creating. I knew my kids were safe and sound asleep. I could hear the hubby snoring. The real world was in great shape, so it was my time, goal time. I suppose the purpose of this blog post is to kinda update y’all on why it may seem like I’m dragging a bit, or why it may appear like I’m not to the level I want to be. The realization is, I am where I want to be. I’m doing what I love, while still taking care of the people I love. Is it hard? You better believe it. Will I stop? Never. I’m also a humble person. I know I owe each of my successes in the writing world to Crazy Ink and the fact they took a chance on me. I’m lucky to have a publishing house that accepts my crazy and doesn’t mind giving me that kick in the ass when I need it.
Okay, enough musings for this rainy Monday. Hope everyone is happy and healthy. And as always, thanks for all your support!!
Lots of Love,