Today makes exactly a week since I worked my last day and went into full lock down. Besides the strangeness exhibited by my family, which in my last blog post I made mention of, I’m starting to realize I have my own issues. I have always been one of those people who wakes up easily, usually around the same time each morning. I don’t struggle with getting out of bed or find myself dozing back off. When my eyes open, that’s it, I’m awake. The day must begin. When I was working, I found I was also one of those people who could fall asleep at the drop of a hat thanks to the go-go schedule I was on. Now? It’s all changing. Completely…
Here’s an example. Yesterday, I woke up at 7:15 in the morning. Over the past week, my normal wake-up time of 6 a.m. has slightly extended which is nice. The problem isn’t what time I woke up, though. The real kicker was the time I actually went to sleep. I didn’t fall asleep until 4 a.m. Why? I wasn’t tired. Yes, I stayed active the day before. I cleaned, did lots of laundry, took a walk with Amber, played with the dogs, all those fun things. I cooked a big meal and even did tons of freelance work and a few chapters on my newest book. I settled down in bed around 11 or so thinking I would watch a little television and doze off like I normally do. I couldn’t. My body wasn’t tired. My mind was, but not my body. I got back up, folded more laundry, cleaned the kitchen again, and even baked a cake. Yes, I baked a cake, from scratch, at 2 a.m. Nothing. By the time I finally fell asleep it took lots of tossing and turning, cussing, kicking, and finally…success.
I expected to be wore out after such little sleep. I wasn’t. Nope, my day continued on like the one before. I couldn’t be outside much because of the rain and storms, but I stayed busy, like a good girl. Then nighttime rolled around and the same thing happened again. The inability to fall asleep. The only thing I can figure out is my body is adjusting to not having the strenuous work schedule I’m used to. Have I truly adapted to work so much that I can’t get actual rest without it? I know my work schedule is different from other people’s. With the cabin cleaning business you work when there’s cabins. There’s always cabins. We can go almost an entire month without a day off at times. When I make it home, I find myself lucky to do a little cleaning, cook a meal, and make it to the bed before I pass out. Without that schedule, I’m struggling. Here’s the thing though, I don’t feel like I’m struggling because of it. I don’t feel sleep deprived. I don’t feel worn down. I don’t feel bored…yet. Which leaves me to wonder if that’s coming. I don’t want it to. I kind of like this new schedule of mine. I used to be a night owl before I owned my own business. I used to stay up late then pop out of bed early every morning. I could go on 3 hours a night and have no issues. Could I be reverting back to that? I don’t mind it if I am, but the real question is, how difficult will it be to change back.
Anyway, I just thought I would pop in and say hi, see how you guys were doing, and talk about my strange new schedule. I hope y’all are finding a way to adapt to the new version of life during the lock down too. I do believe I will start sharing a bit of the oddities of my life and strange things I’m prowling on the internet while in lock down here. Whether anyone sees it or not, it will give me something to do and well, something else to occupy some of the huge amounts of time now on my hands.
Stay home! Take care of yourselves! Read!
Lots of Love,
Rena
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